She was the girl.
She was the girl who loved Manchester Orchestra and insisted that all hot girls have Ramones band tees. She was the girl with long hair and short fingers and a thousand ways to die mapped out in her head. The one with too much to live for and too few years under her belt to understand that she needed to hold on. The one who hated herself but loved who she was. The walking contradiction of intimidation and beauty and cold ice cracking through her eyes.
But I wasn’t really scared of her.
I was just scared of losing her. And when I did, it was worse than I thought it could ever be.
So I stopped thinking and only cried when I had sudden memories of how much I loved her.